I'm baaaack!

Ok, so after my last post about how I am going to be go get 'em and not going to quit...welp, I quit!  And the saddest part is, it was only after 1 day!  Yes, 1.  I can't believe it myself!  All I can say for myself is two things.  1.  Diets are the hardest thing I have EVER done!  I  would take laboring a child everyday.  2.  This time around is different! 

I am finding my motivation!  I am the heaviest I have EVER been!  Pants are so tight, I get grumpy!  I am bigger than someone I swore I would never be bigger than.  I am ready.

So, today is Day 4 of VLCD and I am doing great!  I did go off plan a tiny bit yesterday BUT it is almost that time of the month and I got right back on!  That is what matters!

I am not looking back, but forward!

Ok, now for a recipe I had last night and LOVED!  I follow Carol Ensminger.  I found her on youtube back when I first started the diet and loved her recipes.  She has been successful and able to keep the weight off and manage a healthy lifestyle after the diet and I find her very inspirational!  So, I signed up for her emails from Miracle Skinny Drops and yesterday I got this recipe via email.

Celery Soup


4-5 stalks celery, chopped, including leaves

2-3 tomatoes, chopped

1/2 cup onions, chopped

2 Tbsp MCT oil

2 – 3 C. vegetable broth

Spices to taste

Braggs Liquid Aminos

Sea Salt & Pepper

Parsley

Cayenne pepper (optional)

Cook onions in a heated fry pan with coconut oil until translucent. Add garlic and cook a few minutes longer, stirring as needed. In a larger pot, cook celery in broth until tender. Add seasonings to taste and simmer on medium heat for 15-20 minutes.
 
It was really good!  I had it for dinner and it makes a TON I actually couldnt eat it all.  I enjoyed it with a glass of stevia sweetened tea and 2 melba toast!  It was great for a cold fall night!  I did make a few alterations.  I added my allowed portion of shredded chicken and then I ised EVOO to saute the onions (I found I can actually use a small amount of that a day instead of coconut oil and be fine) and I didn't really add any seasonings..it didn't need it!
 
So, there ya go!  Success AND a new recipe, your welcome!

Time to start making time for "ME"

The past 6 months have been amazing! It is so hard to believe baby girl is 6 months old already! I know time flew by with Blake, but with the second baby it seems like it goes SO much faster!!

For about the past few months, I have been struggling. Struggling with a personal relationship, struggling with me weight and trying to conquer this HCG diet, trying to find time to do more with the kids..it has just been, well busy!

I have started again, stopped again this diet more times than I can remember in the past few months. There is always something coming up, some EXCUSE why I can't.

NO MORE!

Today, I am making a vow. A promise to myself to make myself a priority! I am doing it for my kids, for my husband and for myself.

I know it will be hard, I know I will be hungry, I know I wont have much energy at first, but I know it is worth it because I AM WORTH IT!

Join me wont you? I will keep this blog updated as I go. I promise to update EVERYDAY.

No cheats, No excuses, No more!

Time to get the body back that I am proud of so I can be the person I am inside and out!

Kendra - out :)

Tomorrow is my first VLCD and I will update then!

this train is stopped - well barely moving

Ok, so I have been on a dieting roller coaster the past week! With a very fun weekend ahead of me with the MOPS retreat and then a suprise anniversary party for Mom & Fred, I really had no desire to be strict with my diet. I have been on this diet before and had things come up that I could just get through and be fine (taking the kids to McDonalds, family bbq, etc.) However, with so many things all in one weekend I decided I was going to cheat. I did continue taking the drops. I enjoyed what I wanted to eat but I wouldn't say I went crazy. I did indulge in a few birthday cake pops from starbucks before I went back on my diet because, well, those are my favorite and the thing I was craving the most. Anyway, I got through the weekend and started back on the VLCD Monday. I couldnt do it, come 3pm I was starving and wanted to cheat and I did. I cheated a lot! I talked myself down and told myself it was ok, just start over again Tuesday - guess what? The 3pm hunger happened again and I couldn't get past it. SO - today, I was going to stick to it. I have still taken my drops and finally have all the food and tools I need in the house to do the diet the right way and I did it! I have not cheated today and even took the kids to Mcd's! I am very proud of myself. We are going camping next Friday the 12th which is partly why I continued to cheat the past few days. I was listening to a voice in my head saying "you only have a week and you will cheat again" BUT today I told that voice to be quiet! Yes, I only have 8 days until we go camping BUT that doesn't mean I HAVE to cheat. I might cheat, who knows. But, 8 days is a lot and I can be down another 7lbs or so by then! I need to keep reminding myself of my goal which is to be 195 by 8/24. I can do it! I just need a reminder and to keep the goal in the front of my mind. I hope to be down to 190 or less by my birthday 9/5. There, now that I have written my goals down I hope it will be easier to make it happen! Here's to keeping in the MOMENT and not looking too far ahead at pitfalls. Only I can make my destiny.

Week 1 Results

Hi All - Ok, yesterday marked the end of week 1 and I am happy! I was down 12 lbs from my start weight post loading! I am excited to be down and noticed today my clothes do feel a bit better!!!

Keep ya posted!

Oh, and a few recipe ideas/comments..

I forgot we could have mustard! I put it in my lettuce wrapped sliced steak today with a bit of onion for flavor and it was YUMMO! I am also going to check into agave nectar mixed with mustard to make a honey mustard chicken for dinner!

Happy loosing!

Day 3 VLCD

Today is day three of my P2. I DO NOT like my scale..you have to have it totally flat and even then sometimes it gives different readings. Yesterday it kept going between 1.5-2.5 down...Today my weight is the same IF the scale was 2.5 yesterday. I am going to try and NOT get discouraged. I havent cheated at all and have been doing great so I just need to keep it up!

Hope for bigger losses tomorrow!

Time to start again..

Ok, so I am now on D2 P2 of my second round on HCG. After my first round, I got pregnant and gained baby weight and then enjoyed my nursing and postnatal time (a little too much) SO I am ready to start again and get that scale moving! I am very excited to start! I am the heaviest I have ever been :( I am motivated and although I was unable eat through all of the great food I bought for loading I did a pretty good job and gained 7 lbs! My first day (yesterday) I was down 6! I am very pleased with that and have done great today too! I cant wait to see the scale tomorrow. That is why I love this diet! It is hard sometimes to be hungry all day BUT I know what I can make it through and when I do I LOVE the results and I see them the next day NOT a week down the road. I am loving the chocolate delight I made the other day and cant wait to get to the store for some diet friendly breadsticks and lemons to make lemonade. I will continue to report my progress here -

Keep going HCG'ers!